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Life is never easy/or perhaps not as easy as I used to think it is. It only gets more complex with each passing day. To catch up, I think I need to learn to grow. I need to learn to welcome new challenges and face them and solve them. Since "Setbacks are part and parcel of learning", I don't want to face them with fear and horror anymore. I have to learn to accept and be friends with them.

It is scary, it is really scary. Sometimes it just frightens me; having to open my eyes to witness only a patch of grey future. The whole image is dull and gloomy. I say, no time for the weary, let the rising sun awakes those who are sleeping. 

Now, it's time to catch some sleep; to recuperate for the following day. Good Night

Procrastination is the thief of time! I need to stop procrastinating! Somehow, it is hard to believe that 'A' level is in just a few months time. Worst comes to worst, prelim is around the corner! Ahhhh, I think my brain is starting not to function properly. I seemed to have a hard time fixing my thoughts. I need to set my priority right and get things done in the correct way.

(my thoughts are random. Because I'm confused. I need to settle down to take a breath)

Things to do in life

1. do well for 'A' Level and get into the desired course.

2. get plenty of rest and fun during the post-" A" level period. Treaties for self!

3. Go on a holiday. My dream is to tour around the world. First dream destination- Maldives. Second- Dubai. Third- Hawaii. Fourth- Africa. Fifth- Antarctica. Sixth- USA. Seventh- Egypt. Eighth- Iraq. Ninth- Japan. Tenth- England.

4. graduate from uni and secure a respectable job with good pay.????

5. the rest is yet to be written

"Everyday life is full of puzzles that many people do not even realise are puzzles" The Undercover Economist by Tim Harford. Hopefully I can finish reading this book.

Anyway, a week has past and I rather school never started. Just leave me on bed!  

Yesterday was like no tomorrow. I simply love it! It is good if only life continues from there and not take a u-turn. My dad dropped us at Orchard, where the hunt for clothes began.  It was also the reunion of the shopaholics! No la, I just like shopping with my mum because we share common taste and she is generous on buying clothes for me. Somehow, like mother, like daughter, we always spot on the exact clothes. To end off, it was long and tiring, but fruitful! We had really shopped till we dropped.

Just now was on the phone with Lin Ser. Somehow, I didn't do much talking and was silent for most of the time. Maybe because I was tired? But after putting down the phone, he messaged me to tell me that I sounded very stressed. Was I? Really? I don't know. Perhaps, I'm beginning to feel the pre-exam stress when I see those bio notes lying on the study table indolently.The subject has become my worst nightmare ever since I entered the school last year. Studying bio is taxing and draining, with all the juggernaut bombarding my brain. Oh man! Choosing this subject is like contemplating suicide=( Somewhat, it's worse then dying; turning me into an half-alive zombie.

I've got to extricate myself out of the horrible state!

His following messages were comforting though and there is something meant to be shared. "A wise man does not do different things. He just do things differently. A pessimist sees the darkness in the tunnel, but an optimist sees the light at the end of the tunnel." Motivating eh? Very true and meaningful too, I thought.

Oh yeah, the messages from nat and sita were encouraging too=). But just that they sent at the wrong time lah..haha. I slept early that night, so when I saw the messages, it was alr morning. Btw, thanks loads!!!!!

First and foremost, Happy Father's Day! Despite the fact that we celebrate Mother's day almost every year, this was the first time I celebrated Father's Day. Therefore I wanted to kick-start it different! Actually, it was because I'm broke lah (haha). If I were to get my dad a present, I'll have to pay for it. But if I were to bring them somewhere, they will do the paying. Isn't it killing two birds with a stone? Brilliant!

To my surprise, palau ubin is not very cheap either. A ferry fare costs $2.50 per person. In other words, a return transport fare costs $5 per person. Yea, it is inexpensive if you take into consideration that fuel prices are reaching record high, and the ferry runs on oil. And Singapore currency is appreciating but what has it got to do with this?(random). And And And, you don't expect yourself to explore the island bare-footed right? I'm sure you need a bicycle. The rental rates for bicycles are priced at $6 onwards.

My mum even commented that " this will be my first and last trip to ubin". However, different for me. I will make more frequent visits if I can afford the time. This reminded me of something. Someone once told me that " Singapore is a plot of gold"- not because there is/are gold/money/valuables everywhere you go but no matter where you go, you just have to pay. Seems like paying has become something we can never missed. And having inflation on the track, which means, we have to pay even more! 

Since inflation and fuel price hike have already risen financial burden, can't they reduce the charges for leisure attractions? Or at least, for Singaporeans will do.    

Another week of holiday has past and I cannot conclude much about what I've done so far.

My list of activities for the week

Mon: Watched Sex and the City! WOW! I have fallen in love with it now and I'll be so pleased it to catch it again.

Tues: Celebrated Hui Zhen's 18th birthday.

Wed: Went over to Serena's house and spent hours chatting with her. Oh, we even did an intense study and analysis on her horoscope book. Heehee....it says that people who are born on 3rd of oct are "conscientious when it comes to looking after responsibilities (especially financial obligations) and reciprocating favors. In the back of you mind you want to know your true purpose of life. You feel there is something special, perhaps unique to you alone, that you need to accomplish.You are careful not to interfere with the wishes of others, just as you want your own desires honoured." I think this is so reflective of me- how true.

Thurs: Gym-out with Hui Zhen. Sufficient exercises are good for health.=)

Fri: PCR workshop at Science Centre. This is soooo useful! Thanks a million to Mr Sanjeeh?? for being such a fantastic instructor throughout the entire workshop. Definitely very beneficial on a whole.

So far so much; so little time. Even though I feel like studies have been lagging behind, I have truly enjoyed myself this week. It has been a wonderful, fun-filled week!  

The knot that was troubling me for days has been untied! Many a times, I was sitting on the couch, staring out of the window blankly, pondering on the best way to celebrate her 18th birthday! There were thoughts on spa treat, Little India visit, birthday bash. But hopefully of all, you like the stuffs that Cheryl and I had organised. Yizi, faster come back to Singapore, and we'll hang-out again!

A day full of surprises!

Yes! We met again and this time was a celebration at vivo. ( I read an article a few weeks back and it went round and round talking about how Singaporeans don't celebrate as much as their western counterparts. It then moved on to criticise on how Singaporeans are always late and leave early during parties.Punctuality and basic manners again.Haha...I supposed I'm just a typical Singaporean. But no, for many cases, you have to see who are you partying with. I think the writer has failed to notice it before he jumped into conclusion.)

Well, move back to topic. We pushed back the meeting time to 5.30 as we were afraid that there would not be sufficient time for us to prepare. Fortunately, heaven was our side.=) I even lied to her that Cheryl had an outing before that and I had something on at my grandma's house,thus we could not accompany her to vivo. Poor girl, she has to take the train alone. Of course those were beautiful white lies.  

Haha. So when she arrived at Harbourfront, I went to pick her up and acted as if nothing had happened; as usual we shopped abit first, to ease any suspicion. After that, I requested to go to the open area at the top level to take photos. Haha...quite a weird request. 
Then the rest took place smoothly as was planned. Our plan succeeded wonderfully.

* For more details, let the photos do the saying. However, there were more presents than what you see in the album. There were a total of 18 packets of snacks, exclusive of our main presents. Haha....we'll see! Maybe we don't have to get her presents the following few years..kidding=p

 H iking/henderson waves. Heee....Can't wait for next thurs to arrive. ONLY thurs pls. Because I have reserved the day to go mt faber with Cheryl. =)

sU n-tanning.

 I kea-my long-waited swedish meatballs. I'm drooling already!

 X traordinary! Erm, cant think of one yet but must be something thrilling and FUN!

 I ce-cream???? something cooling for Singapore's weather

 N ational museum/library. The one-stop for the intellects. Haha, as if I'm one! Nah, just want to pop in and have a look. Definitely looking forward to this friday when Shirley and I will start on our heritage exploration.

erm. think there are some little problems with multiply again. Basically, this is not the post I wanted to have. At first, thought of putting up a photo post but i cant attach files. NVM! Anyway, if look closely, you'll be able to spot my name but it's not obvious now. I'll arrange this post once the problem is settled. =)

*breakfast,lunch,tea time and dinner

Haha, I guessed I'm too bored until there's nothing much to do at home. Being stuck within the four walls, no matter which direction I turn my head, I STILL SEE THE WHITE WALL! hee... However, I would still rather bored to death at home then stressed to grave in school.

Actually, I really like my school holidays. Even though something-laughter and fun- seems to be missing, I still enjoy the comfort of home. It is a time for me to relax and indulge; slow down the pace of life and great time for hang-outs!

Well, today I've dedicated my time to cooking! ( I love being at home. It gives me space to do what I like and what I want to do) Experimented some new dishes. On a whole, I'm very satisfied with what was done. Feel so accomplished. But, there was no one to share my joy. In the past, at least when my brother was around, he would tease me or give comment on my cooking. Now, it is more of like cooking for myself and eating by myself after he went for NS. =( Nevermind, think on the brighter side, 'I get to eat more!'

Not only cooking! I have decided to start my slimming/fitness programme from today onwards. I want to lose 3 kg! If possible, make it 4! Anyway, went down for a swim in the late afternoon and I have to admit that NOTHING BEATS A GOOD SWIM. At first, I could not make up my mind whether to start it off by the pool or the gym. The damn good weather just lured me into the pool by temptation. Well, I was quite pissed off with the kids while I was swimming because they were always blocking my way.ARGH! This is the problem with school holidays. Young kids cramping around the pools, the pavement, the playgrounds. Wanna play, GO BABY POOL AND PLAY LAH. Oops, sounded harsh but who cares! Haaaaaaaa

Prince Caspian *-*

Today I went back to school to do the final touch-up and stuffs for the library's LAST LAST LAST AND FINAL project for J2s. Woosh, I have to admit seriously it looks great, so much better then what I've imagined. With all our hard work, how can it not be? Think from then on, the teachers will not call us back anymore (pray hard) and I can officially declare that "I"VE STEPPED DOWN le!!!!".

From the moment I saw the colourful pictures being pasted onto the tiles, I know for one thing, I'm the most happiest person in the world! Cannot exactly tell how happy I was!!!! Not only overwhelmed with joy but a mixed of other feelings as well- relieve, blessed,contended,proud, totally over the moon. haha

Yesterday...hee...was a long story. Anyway I had no idea how Xue Lian saw me with the other library members, perhaps she saw the wrong person or my twins?(ahh, XL becareful! Were you seeing doubles?) Initially had the intention of helping them out yesterday but so coincidentally when I went into msn, Hui Zhen asked me out for shopping in the morning. Definitely I will never reject any shopping trips! So I agreed upon her request. And then I contiuned to surf the net, thinking that there was still ample of time for me to prepare. Little did I realise I was hooked onto an online shopping blog and then moment when I looked up to check the time. It was 'shit, I'm super late.'

So, I hurriedly got myself changed and packed all the stuffs. By the time I reached the school gate, I could get myself to walk into the school. There was a sudden pushing wind that brushed past me and made me changed my mind. I turned back and headed to Hui Zhen's house, where I changed again but this time into outside clothes. Haha...I guess she was shocked by my sudden-ness.

Well, the rest of the story took place in Orchard which I have nothing more to say. Sad to conclude that this year GSS isn't that nice to shop. Not much variety and most importantly, not much discount! The discounted items for GUESS are so 'auntie-like', a bit sloppy and improper for normal wear-out. Obviously I don't see any GSS happening in STELLA MCCARTNEY. What happened? The range for offer items in ZARA are so limited, at least some clothes are not bad.=) Agnes B. I have nothing to say about the clothes, totally off my mind. FOREVER 21, forget about this shop! COTTON ON has good bargains. So, basically we were stuck in 2 shopping malls because of the rain. But it was really the accompany that was fun and enjoyable.

I'm desperate for TIME!!!!! Ahhh.....Somehow suddenly can sense the urgency of studying but can't put myself wholeheartedly onto it. It seems to me that I lose my concentration easily especially at the thought of food! How I wish..........I can reverse/rewind/replay time. (Dream on, man)

It is kinda scary when people are always saying that "our fate lies within our hands", but in actual fact 'time' is the mastermind of it all. Yes, indeed, 'no pain, no gain' but there are also a lot efforts being dumped into drain because of unripened time. The amount of effort that we can put in is limited. To achieve success, the rest depends on time. If you choose the appropriate time to buy a house and prime period to sell it, you are bound to earn big bucks. Therefore, Time is a crucial factor. 

Well, my greatest greatest and really greatest wish is to hope that time will slow down its pace. Perhaps there's little use of it too. Because though I may have known the importance of it, I don't seems to treasure and make good use of it. I'm regretting of taking it for granted.

Okay....stop complaining people! Here I am to update my blog. Had the intention of closing this blog, but....at twice thinking, there is some reluctance. Because you'll see all your efforts and time in typing all those posts vanish in thin air.=(

Erm, today is ...I can only give you the it-has-never-been-so-good expression. Jing min and xue lian ran 2.4km with me after school! They-perhaps only jing min because XL is easy to handle(haha)- only agreed to the run after a long long persuasion. Anyway, hope they feel the same way as I do. I really truly enjoyed the run. It felt so un-tiring, and it gave me the feeling of the-more-you-run-the-more-you-will-have-the-urge to run. Thank you! By the way, I was quite taken back by Kai Xin's reply. She is usually the one who is very enthu about pc and exercising. But today, she disappointed me! hai.........haha, just jk, okay!

Our PW results are released. I got a B which can blow me up to the sky=) No lah. When wen fang first told me about my grade, I was totally over the moon, felt better than an astronaut. Seems like now, the good feeling has faded.

I just realised and have been enlightened to this fact: I am so not a librarian. I just hate my CCA! I hate doing all the chores which no one bothers. And I really dislike what I am doing now; overwhelm with projects after projects. Anyway, I hardly touch those projects. When they were assigned to me, I kind of leave them hanging. See! I just can't take the responsibility of a boring librarian. Regretted so much for taking the wrong step! No, for stepping into the wrong place!

I am not sure if people do have the same problems as I often do. Problem #1: What should I do with life? Problem #2: Why is life like this?

Some would have suggested to throw away all the "should" and just pursue something (of course, not blind pursue) because life is short so why not just do it. Hence forth, it is not a bad idea to dip ourselves into the pool of fun happenings since we can't foresee what -good or bad- will happen.

I just stumbled across this quote a few minutes ago, "we think in generalities, but we live in detail". A worth-noting saying by an English mathematician in the 19th century. Have we been asking too much in life or is there a lot to be asked for? This sets me thinking. It is always easy for us to think in the big picture or get the broad idea that we overlook the "detail": the meaning of life. And the meaning of life? I'm still searching.....This links me to the second problem. I can't figure out why is life like this?

Global economy is growing fast and moving rapidly as compared to civilisation times. We now have better sanitation, an advanced research field enabling us to fight triumphantly against diseases. However, our selfishness of momentarily comfort has resulted in the abandoning of the environment. Creating greater risks for human race (e.g. global warming, natural disasters) and not only us, we are dragging the animal kingdom and other organisms along too. Are we brought into this world to improve or worsen the conditions?  

So what is our significance? Are we significant in an insignificant way?

Alright forget about this. Perhaps there is no answer to this question.

Let's continue with problem #1. Some people let fate decides them whereas some decides their own destiny. The former bounds to depend a lot on luck for fortune and fortunate events whereas the latter will fight for their own wealth.

Luck is a form of superstition that many have misunderstood its presence. It brings forth positive thinking and not wishful thinking, hence it is wrong for us to be over-reliant on it. Even though it is hard to prove its existence- it is scientifically illogical- it is hard to deny the fact that it does not exist. To say one being lucky or unlucky is just categorising them as to the level of efforts they have added in. This is because, the lucky ones are those who are able to "turn bad luck into good" by trying to squeeze benefits into misfortune.

What should I do with life? I can't depend solely on luck for a smooth ride till death. Do I have an alternative? After so much writing and after so many years of pondering, I still cannot find my answer. (or perhaps, I've found it but never dare to face to truth of it)